Dear sparky:

I was just sitting here thinking about you which i do often. There has been alot of changes around here. I am getting married next year. We get zaylee every other weekend, and every other holiday. God how i wish you were here to see how beautiful, and how much your god-daughter has grown. She looks more and more like her daddy everyday. It's so cute she will see a picture of jeremy, get this big cheesy grin on her face ( like jeremy does ) and say my daddy clear as day. I wanted to do something good during this holiday season in memory of you so I rang bells for the salvation army to help kids less fortunate have a good christmas. My aunt kathy moved out all the way which i'm glad because she is the reason you couldn't spend the night the night before you left us and went to heaven. Well sweetie i am going to close for now, and take care of some stuff. Remember we will see eachother again someday so save me a spot in that hackey sack game I am sure your playing ok

Love: Sherrill ( Your other mother from another brother )

Brendan, you were like a lil brother to me, i always tried to protect you and keep you away from danger.  I love you, always will!  I know your looking down on me!

I was just sitting here thinking about you and how much I miss you and I keep remembering the day you came over and watched The Exorcism of Emily Rose with us and Buddy scared the crap out of you when you were sitting on our bananna chair... Its stuck in my mind, and I can't get it out and I can't figure out why.... I miss you so much brenerz I can't stop thinking about you I wish so bad I knew where you were buried so I could come see you and talk for a while but I coulnd't go to your burial... I love you and I miss you. ~Sara

My son, in every way that matters.  There are moments in a man's life when he feels singularly honored. One of those moments came for me a month or so after your mother and I met and began courting. It was you (9 years old) and me outside McDonald's waiting for your mom and sis. We were just chatting and out of the blue, you looked up at me and said, "Can I call you Dad?"  Wow.

You are my son, and always will be. Though you didn't have my blood, you have my heart forever.

Bring your mom a kitty every once in a while, Buddy. I love you.

I have so many memories of you. getting married, my first kiss, your TMNT shorts, every day of every sumer from age 4 to 11 or 12, sledding in the alley, wow, so many. I want you back so i can redo so many things, i have some regrets about things i've sxaid and done to you but i know that you forgive me.

If I had known that the last time i'd see you was the day outside the school i would've hugged you a little longer, taken the second kiss on the forehead, talked a little longer, and listened a little harder. I miss you everyday. everyday there is something that reminds me of you and i love it, i know you're looking down helping me out. i thank god i knew you but curse god that he took you so early. i love my memories, i cherish them wholeheartedly, i miss you dearly, and i'll love you forever.